Sleepwalking my way through life: A final decision



A final decision

Nano is inching ever closer, with only a mere three days of preparation left before November rolls around and I take pen in hand. Until now I had thought of it frivolously, regarding it lightly as I thought of how far away November was. But now it isn’t far away; it’s three days away.

I have a few notes scribbled down – hidden in the notebook kept in the recess of my bag – but none of them significant. They merely reflect my lack of imagination as I write and rewrite ideas over and over, each scribble and side note as exaggerated as the last. No plot twists, no story arcs, not even any other characters – only the same five things written over and over.

It’s then that I stop and think. Will I be able to do this? Will I be able to churn out an entire book in a month? I think of the goal to achieve and I let my head fall in defeat. Fifty thousand words seem impossible to do, having to average just fewer than two thousand words a day. It is a hopeless endeavour, and I actually feel quite foolish that I even thought of undertaking it. My hand moves to close my notebook and slip it back into my-

The pen is poised, my hand tensing up as a quick thought runs through my head. My mouth hangs open ever so slightly, my eyes glazing over for a mere moment before returning to life with a flicker of urgency. I scribble notes into the notebook, licking my lip unconsciously as I scan the words I write. I write faster and faster; my hand cramping up in time for me to finish the notes and close the book. I slip it into my bag without checking it, letting ideas dance around my thoughts without hindrance.

It will be hard. With all my essays and assignments for university – not to mention my five day a week job – it will be very hard. But I will do it, and in thirty three days I can promise that I will have a finished novel sitting in front of me. You can damn well quote me on that.
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6 Comments:

At 7:03 am, Anonymous eddmun said...

And are we going to be able to read it?

 
At 10:14 am, Anonymous kiwiqueen said...

Heh. We'd better!!

 
At 2:41 pm, Anonymous Elisabeth Ice Cream said...

I think you will do fine, Joe. Just don't stress about it! I will do it serious next year, this year I'm going for the 15 000 or something. And I don't even think I'm planning it very good...

 
At 4:11 am, Anonymous Vivian said...

I fully expect good things in your novel! You can do it, Joe! And I will damn well quote you in a quote that says that you can "damn well quote [you] on that" that will I will damn well quote you on!

Things like Nano always sneak up on you.

Good luck! I know you can do it!

 
At 7:53 am, Anonymous Elisabeth Ice Cream said...

You drink too much tea, Vivian.

 
At 8:26 am, Anonymous Joe said...

Aidan/Kiwi - I think that, after all the reading and editing, I might let a few select people read it before I send it off the the publishers... Heh.

Vivian - Hahahaa, thank you for your heart warmingly random support. Thanks, really, thanks.

Elisabeth - Shame on you! You can never drink too much tea, nor coffee.

-Joe

 

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