Sleepwalking my way through life: A sigh of relief

A sigh of relief

“Are you leaving then?”

I smiled and the gentle breeze blew the hair out of my eyes, making me screw up my eyes because of the bright sun. I looked at the group of first years huddling in front of me, all of them girls ranging from short and chubby to tall and incredibly thin. They waited anxiously for my answer, holding their breath in anticipation; my fan club awaiting the news from their leader.

“Yeah,” I replied, shifting my bag to a more comfortable position, “I’m leaving. You’ll see me a couple of times around school, but other than that…” I trailed off, not wanting to say the inevitable “you won’t see me again”. They knew it already, and I didn’t want to cause them more pain. “Bye guys.”

“Bye Joe.” They said one by one, each of them not looking directly at me, trying their best to stare intently at the pavement. I was going to miss those girls (trust me, their story will be told another time).

I walked away form them and joined Rooney on the grass, hiding the stolen Fire Exit sign under my bag before enjoying the sun. Our bus was late, so we were subjected to the beautiful heat and the soft grass, lying back and letting the world buzz by until it arrived. I lay back on the warm, wet grass with Rooney, gazing at the deep blue that spanned above us. We gazed in silence for a few thoughtful moments, trying to grasp what had just happened.

“Do you feel it?” I asked, looking straight up at the sky.

“Feel what?”

I stretched my arms up, trying to grab at the clouds. “Do you feel what I’m feeling?”

Rooney sat up, looking at me with a ‘what the hell you talking about?’ face. “What the hell you talking about?” He asked. “What are you feeling?”

I let out a deep sigh, letting my hands drop to my stomach again and a smile spreading across my face.

“That I’ve survived.”
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At 11:41 am, Anonymous Kiwiqueen said...

You're leaving, I gathered that. And you've got a fan club consisting of girls whose hearts you may have broken by telling them? :-D

Slightly confused about something. You're leaving "high school", right? And going to University soon. Well...what about the college bit? Is it all different in Scotland?


Anyway, again, great post ^^^ :-)

At 7:24 pm, Anonymous Jules said...

I've escaped too :D *woot*

At 1:16 pm, Anonymous Joe said...

Kiwi: My heart was left in shattered pieces also for having to leave them... *sniff*

Yeah, I'm leaving High School and going to university. College is optional. If you leave High School after your Standard Grades (GCSE's for you guys) then you can go to college to get your Highers (O levels, or A levels I think...). But you can stay on and take your highers in high school which most people do. Your higher grades get you into University (Or even a regular job), and you go to college if you don't get all the grades you need for university.

I'm reading that back, and it makes no sense what so ever. So to answer your question... Yes, Scotland is VERY different.

Jules: Isn't it just... wonderful?


At 1:22 pm, Anonymous x said...

Bitter sweet.. Love this post. (:

At 6:26 pm, Anonymous Elisabeth Ice Cream said...

*bows in the dust* You rule, Joe.

At 6:36 pm, Anonymous eddmun said...

I really like the way you write - interesting. Literary Journalism almost :)

At 10:10 pm, Anonymous Jules said...

Sweet, sweet freedom.

At 11:53 pm, Anonymous Kiwiqueen said...

Ohhh...this is rubbing it in now :-(

I'm not free for another 6 weeks. These 6 weeks are going to be a nightmare.

Not that I'm not happy for all you free people...


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