Sleepwalking my way through life: Rantings of a would be insomniac



Rantings of a would be insomniac

It’s early; really early. So early, that it’s actually considered late. It’s ten to three and I find myself, once again, with the inability to sleep. I used to have a talent for sleeping; I’d do it for the entire night, even stretching to some part of the day. I even did it during the day a couple of times. Only coma patients were better at sleeping than I.

But now I don’t sleep. I stay up and write instead. Notice how my blogs are getting later and later, my thoughts only being written down in the deep dark of a sleepless night. My thoughts aren’t whole here, they’re sleepy and disjointed. They’re a mixture of the songs I’m listening to, the end of the last conversation I had, the topics the last blog I read brought me, and (oddly enough) swirling purple dye.

I’ve often wondered what it’s like to be an insomniac. I started reading Stephen King’s Insomnia but I didn’t get far due to the need of studying. What I did read was quite interesting though, lots of in depth descriptions of the horror of insomnia. The waking sleep where life is a swirling nightmare that’s twisted and distorted with bloodshot eyes and heavy hands. Stumbling from one second to the next with the tangible knowledge that only a second passed and not the lifetime that seemed to have gone by. Blinking with lead eyelids, licking dry lips with half thought plans; wishing to die just for a bit of relaxation.

My friend in fourth year spent his night playing videogames and spent his days scoring full marks in every test. Hmm.

There is no point to this rant. Just another half thought… thought from someone who should be asleep. I have a proper rant to write soon. A good one, a slightly controversial one, but a good one none-the-less.

I think.
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3 Comments:

At 7:18 am, Anonymous eddmun said...

Is it stress that causes you to not sleep properly?

 
At 12:03 pm, Anonymous Joe said...

Stress? I don't think so. I don't feel too streesed out these days. I know that my final exams are upon me, determining whether I get into Uni or not, but I seem to be facng them with an almost scary lack of caring. Things personally seem fine and dandy, and work is nice and easy going.

I don't think it's stress, but I might look into it...

-Joe

 
At 2:13 am, Anonymous x said...

something like that started two years ago for me and it has remained ever since. now i sleep like an average of 4 hours a day. if you ever find a cure, post it. haha..

 

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