Sleepwalking my way through life: The last nail on the coffin



The last nail on the coffin

I have an hour to sit here to tell you about the last week, to tell you what's wrong with me, to tell you what I am thinking, and to tell you what's going to happen next. But lets make a long story short.

It's over, she's gone. And it's almost certain that she's not coming back.

After five nights of thinking, Marie decided to let me go. She had been debating whether or not she really loved me, and instead of dragging me along while she decided, she decided to break up with me. We're still friends, best friends infact, but we're not together.

Yet I am still madly in love with her.

I feel so fucking helpless. I said that I'd do something to get her back, but all I did was sit on my fat fucking ass as she thought alone. She fell right through my arms, and I wish like fuck I could catch her. I feel alone and empty, laughing while forcing back tears.

I habour a secret hope that she'll come back. That she'll realise the truth and take me back. Empty fucking hopes.

FUCK
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11 Comments:

At 4:40 pm, Anonymous Laura said...

*many big hugs*

I don't know what to say. I wish I could make your hurt go away :(

*more hugs*

 
At 11:04 pm, Anonymous Dan said...

:(

 
At 7:20 am, Anonymous Jules said...

So sorry Joe. That's a fucked-up situation. :(

 
At 7:58 pm, Anonymous Joe said...

Things happen

 
At 3:31 pm, Anonymous A.Person said...

What was her reasons for dumping you?

 
At 8:38 pm, Anonymous Joe said...

Hello A(dot)Person, thank you for thaking the time and effort to form your question. Now I'm going to reply with my own question.

ARE YOU FUCKING BLIND?

Can you not even read the fucking post where, you know, I ACTUALLY TELL YOU? No, I suppose you can't. I suppose you just breezed through my blog as you sat on your fucking ass in front of your fucking pc and decided to write quite an insensetive question that, as mentioned, is IN the fucking post in the fucking first place.

I mean come on!

Best fucking regards,

-Joe

 
At 9:06 am, Anonymous A.Person said...

I bet you fuckin deserved it you stupid twat! You were just too much of a loser for her and i suppose maybe it was all because you write every single detail about your relationship on the internet you freak!

 
At 8:10 pm, Anonymous Joe said...

Why do I waste my time with a fuckwit like you? Why why why why why why why why why why why why why?

Now Jen, can you answer me that?

And before you go on a spout about how you're "not" Jen, I know it's you. Yes, you may have learned some puncuation and spelling in your time away, but I still know it's you. How? I hear you ask. Well it's simple, I still feel the pure revulsion that I get when I hear your voice or if you're mentioned or if you happen to wander over to my little corner of the internet just to leave another expertly crafted insult like "U suck."

Just go and die. You'll be doing me, and the world, one giant favour.


-Joe

 
At 9:04 am, Anonymous Jennifer said...

why do i always get the god dam blame! Thousands of people hate you!

 
At 9:27 am, Anonymous Heather said...

Joe,

Its a sad situation and i know nobody can say anything to make you feel better, so i won't, deal with it your way and the pain will go away quicker. It will never leave you completely, but you will feel you can move on. And i hope you do.

Heather :(
x

 
At 12:53 pm, Anonymous Joe said...

Jen - Yes, thousands of people hate me, but none are as pathetic as you. You read this just to have a chance to kick me when I'm down? Very classy. Like I said, fuck off and die.

And thanks Heather, I appreciate it. People seem to be giving similar advice these days... Hmmm.
Thanks again.

-Joe

 

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