Sleepwalking my way through life: "Hwoon dahn."



"Hwoon dahn."

I finished watching the Firefly series this afternoon.

And because of it I'm determined to start swearing in Chinese. It sounds a lot less crude than it does in English.

And if you go tell a Ned to have sexual relations with his mother you can have the pleasure of insulting him and looking at the confused look on his face as he tries to figure out what you said.

Now, I'm not one to want to learn another language. But if I did, it would be either Chinese or Japanese.

Yes, that does sound unbelievably geeky of me, but I don't care. Being able to speak Japanese would be fantastic. I could watch untranslated anime and know what it means. I can get really amazing Japanese games before they're released in PAL.

And, of course, the swearing.

But I digress from the story of my life, which I'm sure all of you are eager to hear.

But this isn't going to be about me really. Well, it is, but I'm going to focus more on my friends.

Or should I say, lack of?

I won't start at the beginning, seeing as in my lifetime I have ploughed my way through a good deal of people. So I'm going to start at the beginning of this summer.

I had good friends. I didn't have a best one, yet, but I did have really good friends. Maddy, Jeff and Laura. Three of my very good friends at the time. We went out, we had fun, we were friends.

But now, five weeks into school, I'm not so sure.

Due to timetables and impending jobs, I've started to drift from them. I think.

I only speak to Maddy about once, maybe twice a week. I'm lucky to even speak to Jeff at all these days. Laura is the only one who I've been talking to regulary.

But on the other hand, I've made more friends.

For example, Cara. Although I still don't know much about her, I still considor her a really good friend.

And John. If I had a best friend, then he would be it. I've gotten to know him a lot more and we are really great friends, but we still live in two different worlds.

I've sacrificed personal friendships to belong in a group. A gathering of people at the same spot in the Crush. We sit, we talk, we laugh. I don't know any of them really well.

I'm just wondering if it's the right kind of friendship for me.

But there's one thing I'm really worried about.

I thought I had solid friendship with someone, but even that has been shaken to it's core. I remember I used to look at this relationship and smile, thinking that it can never be broken.

Needless to say that I was wrong.

I'm going to end this blog here, because I can see it descending into the ranks of an emo rant. And I do not want this blog to become cryptic. Again.

Hwoon dahn.
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2 Comments:

At 7:24 am, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Heeeeey Joe. How ya doin? Can't be arsed writing an email and I was on this anyways. California is fucking great. Lot's of food. Lot's of fat people. Lot's of hot guys and dolls. It's good times! Anyways just thought I'd drop ya a line. Hope everything is going well in.....everything. Dan xxx

 
At 3:19 pm, Anonymous Anonymous said...

hi, wot friend were u refering to? so she your girlfriend now?

 

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