Sleepwalking my way through life: "I start getting deep and stuff"



"I start getting deep and stuff"

I am in one shitty mood.

And I have no idea why. The past few days have been fine, more than fine even. But right now I feel like utter crap.
It's probably because I don't have anyone to talk to. Don't get me wrong, there are tonnes of people on MSN I can have a chat with, but I don't really want to talk to anyone. Well, no one that's on MSN at the moment that is.

Maybe it's 'cause I'm tired. It's cming up for midnight, and I did get up pretty early this morning.
I had to get up early because I was expecting a phonecall, and I didn't want to answer it half asleep. I was also up early because next door are getting their driveway done and the workers start early in the morning. It sucks.
The phonecall was about a job that I'm after. Hudson (The place that I got interviewed at) called me up on wednesday and told me that they had gotten me a job at the Three Phone Company where I had to use Exel as data input. But yesterday they told me that it had fallen through, so they were looking for another job for me.
And this morning they found one.
It's at some real-estate place near the SECC. The basic outline of the job was to look at maps and enter details onto a computer. They said it would be a bit repetitive, but when the pay is six quid an hour then I don't care. I figured out that by the end of the summer I would have made over one thousand pounds (Without tax). Which is pretty good if you ask me.
I start on monday, so mum's taking me into Glasgow this weekend to see how far it is to walk and if I can find my way. Which isn't bad.

I finished anotehr drawing tonight too. I think that's why I'm in a crappy mood.
It started out fine and all, I liked the colours and look of it and stuff, but after a while I got really sick of it and I really didn't like it. I just couldn't be bothered to continue colouring it.
Here it is.
The thing is that when I was colouring this I had a lot more important things to do. I still need to draw and colour three more pictures. One of which is due by monday. Well, I don't have to do that one, but I feel obliged to do so.

And none of you guys out there know what I'm on about.

The three drawings that I have to draw are: Darkest Lynk's present, ShakKens picture and a ceratin something else which I'm not alowed to mention.
DL's birthday is on monday, and I'm not sure whether to draw a picture or not, 'cause I don't know him all too well and I wouldn't want to give him a shitty picture with my lack of skill.
ShakKens picture is for a WR activity or competition or whatever you want to call it. And it needs to be done by the twenty-fifth I think. So I've got a bit of time with that.
And the last picture isn't for a while now, but I've really been working on it hard. But it still sucks, and with work coming up and all I don't know if I'll be able to make it better or not.

By the end of this I'm going to be really sick of drawing.

Damn. I might have to drop Advanced English. I'm really swamped as it is, and I haven't even started work yet. So I don't know how I'm going to have to fit reading several books by the end of the summer, not to mention the work load for next year.
I might just drop English and put Drama in its place like I was going to do originally. But I don't want to.
I hate my laziness.

I hate when I'm tired too. I start getting deep and stuff.
Seriously, there are nights when I've spent hours on my windowsil listening to the rain and just thinking about life. And I come up with really great stuff that makes perfect sense and stuff, but I always fall asleep and forget it.
I think I wrote it down once, but I accidentally spilt coke on it the next morning and I couldn't read it.
Perhaps I'm destined not to remember all the things I think at night. Maybe I think up the meaning of life and some big almighty power makes me forget.
Or maybe I think of crap like this and my brain pushes this useless crap out.

I'd better go now.
I'm feeling a lot better now that I've typed stuff up and I've found someone else to talk to...

I'm gonna go rearrange my MSN contacts...
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1 Comments:

At 2:57 am, Blogger You know, that Laura person. said...

Jooooooooooe! I'm sorry you have no one to talk to... it's all my fault... I just had to go and get a job, completely RUINING our talky time.. *sigh* T_T

But I can talk to you tomorrow for a few hours! I can!

I get home at around 2, see.. which is um... 7 or so your time.. so... um... yeah. WE can talk for a while ^__^

*hug hug hug*

Have a good day! And since you'll prolly read this in the morning, if ever... I'll talk to you later ^_^ Have a good one... byes!

 

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