Sleepwalking my way through life: I remember when I still felt alive

I remember when I still felt alive

Current Mood: Goooood
Current Music: Blink182 - Adam's Song

"I never thought I'd die alone
I laughed the loudest who'd have known?
I trace the cord back to the wall
No wonder it was never plugged in at all
I took my time, I hurried up
The choice was mine I didn't think enough
I'm too depressed to go on
You'll be sorry when I'm gone

I never conquered, rarely came
16 just held such better days
Days when I still felt alive
We couldn't wait to get outside
The world was wide, too late to try
The tour was over we'd survived
I couldn't wait till I got home
To pass the time in my room alone

I never thought I'd die alone
Another six months I'll be unknown
Give all my things to all my friends
You'll never step foot in my room again
You'll close it off, board it up
Remember the time that I spilled the cup
Of apple juice in the hall
Please tell mom this is not her fault

I never conquered, rarely came
16 just held such better days
Days when I still felt alive
We couldn't wait to get outside
The world was wide, too late to try
The tour was over we'd survived
I couldn't wait till I got home
To pass the time in my room alone

I never conquered, rarely came
But tomorrow holds such better days
Days when I can still feel alive
When I can't wait to get outside
The world is wide, the time goes by
The tour is over, I've survived
I can't wait till I get home
To pass the time in my room alone"
Blink182 - Adam's Song

I want four songs played at my funeral.
Blink182 - Adams song
The Mars Volta - Televators
Clint Marshall Version - Requiem of a Dream
Greenday - Good Ridance (Only if I die before Maddy)

Funny. Two of those songs are about suicide.

I've had a really fun weekend.


I got sweets with Jen. And together we spent around fifteen punds on sweets and drinks. The lady behind the till gave us looks that made us feel like pies.
So I went home, got all showered and ready and stuff. Then Heatherbelle texted me asking if she could come twenty minutes early. So I said yes, then Jen asked if she could bring her stuff round early, so she just stayed with me and Heather.
Chaz came round late. And we sat watching tv and ordered pizza, then we ate the pizza. THEN they decided to watch a show called Bikini Beach on the wrestling channel. It was just this girl standing in a bikini and talking to the camera about random crap in her day while people phoned in to guess the competition behind her.
The competition thingy was a picture of Kate Moss, and beside her were eight sets of lips. And you had to guess which lips belonged to her. Now, we were convinced that we knew the answer. So the next ten minutes was epnt by them holding me down while trying to get the phone and dial.
Now don't get me wrong, I was just as convinced as they were. But I didn't want to risk being wrong and for "Bikini Beach" to come up under the phone bill.
So as I was wrestling for the phone, some other guy got through and said our answer. And we all waited with baited breath...
"Sorry wrong answer"
But no no no. NOW they were convinced it was another answer. So they tried to dial it up again. Then my mum came home.
Now picture this scene.
Me on the couch, with two girls sitting on top of me, with a third girl breathing heavily holding the phone, and the tv showing a girl wearing nothing but a bikini.
Not the best situation.

After that we went to to video store and rented Saw, Alfie and mum got Spiderman2.

So we went back, got changed into our PJs (Even though it was only eight) and watched Alfie.
It's an ok film I guess. We weren't paying much attention to it to be honest. And by the end of it we were all like "What the Hell?"
Then we watched Saw. It was more funny than scary to be honest. Every ten minutes or so they wanted me to turn it off. It was kinda freaky though. Imagine, some one had to write sick shit like that.
After that we watched A Cinderella Story. TIS CRAP I TELLS YA! Tis even crappier the second time round.
So after that it was about hald three in the morning. So we spent the rest of the night talking.
By the time we went to sleep it was about half six.


I got woken up by mum at about nine as she was going out. So we got up and had breakfast which consisted of leftover sweets from the night before.
Then I got the Game of Life down from the attic and we played that. But just as we finished Charlotte had to go.
Jen and Heatherbelle hung around for a bit more before going home themselves.

Then mum made me go out to B&Q with her. And every time we stopped to look at something I literally bent over the trolley and dozed.
So as soon as I got home I just went to bed, with my clothes on and everything. I expected to wake jup at about five or sixish. So I was happy.


Well, the unexpected happened.
I woke up at about nine. And I was like "What the Hell?"
Yeah, I had tro go to the centre with mum. But it wasn't all that bad. She bought me a nice blue t-shirt that was pretty good. And a kinda brown/grey shirt that had Hong Kong Fuey on the front!

Ah well.

"'Ebidi ebidi ebidi... That's all fucks!' - Cycon
'Dude, it says folks.' - Stage hand
'Folks!' - Cycon"
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At 11:14 pm, Blogger You know, that Laura person. said...

Sounds like you had fun :)

HAHAHA you poor boy XD I wonder what your mum was thinking when she saw that XP

They made you watch A Cinderella Story TWICE? o__O;


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