Sleepwalking my way through life: April 2005

All these shades of grey

Saturday, April 30, 2005
Current Mood: Tired, but not-tired at the same time
Current Music: None

I'm about to go to bed in a few minutes, but I just thought I'd put something up here for the hell of it.

I just finished watching Fellowship of the Ring on channel four just there. I haven't seen that film in ages and I'd forgotten how much I loved it.
And it gave me great ideas for a few stories. I mean, I was just watching the film and all these plots and scenes just ran into my head and I was like, "Whoa, gotta write these down...". So I did, but now I can't find the piece of paper.
That's useful ain't it?

For those who don't know, Firefly was a really amzing tv show that was (sadly) cancelled. It was really good, and I am so pleased they've done something with it.

So yeah. I'm sitting at my pc right now, with no lights on bar the monitor, and everything is grey. Like even the tomato sauce in front of me is grey.
Don't ask me why there is tomato sauce in my computer room. I don't even know myself.
So anyway, I'm just commenting on how cheerful and amazing this... grey is.

And there's not much left for Fullmetal Alchemist. It's only got 0.2Gigabytes left to download (Which will take approx five hours downloading) so I'm gonna leave the pc on tonight and finish it off.
Which is REALLY good.

But tomorrow happens to be sunday, and sunday happens to be.... Study day.
I hate studying. It's just so boring. But I guess I have to do it if I wanna pass this year.
Gosh darned schools. Making me think and all.

Luckily we have a long weekend this week, so we get monday and tuesday off too. Monday is going to be filled with even more studying while tuesday is going to be half study and half relaxing.
It's crap though, 'cause I was supposed to go out with Maddy and all that on Monday, but since mum has got the day off too she's not letting me out and she's gonna make sure I study.

It's not as if I've got any money to go out anyway.

I went to DiMaggios with Jen, Chaz and Heatherbelle last night.
Was it last night? Yes, it was friday night (Me and my memory).
so yeah, it was really fun. We sat and ate and talked. We even considored leaving without paying the bill. Jen and Chaz were even out the door, but Heatherbelle wouldn't leave so we all ended up paying, which means I have no money.
After Heatherbelle left we went over to Dans house and went in for him (It was about ten to ten at this time) and we convinced him to come out for a bit. But as soon as he was ready my mum called and said she was gonna pick me up now, and Jen and Chaz wanted a lift home, so Dan got dressed for nothing really.

Yup, that's me and my crazy life all in a nutshell. Filled with Fireflies, anime, and pizzas.

Well, I'm off to the land of nod. See ya.

You have me forever

Thursday, April 28, 2005
Current Mood: Tired
Current Music: Blink 182 - Reckless Abandon

One is knackered from a long week at school.

Yes, that one is me.

Arg. I'm just so tired. I can barely type properly. Everytime I look back to check my writing I end up spotting and extra "r" or "k". Tis annoying.

I've had a bad week. Well, I've had a bad beginning of week, but now it has been picking up.
But lets not talk about the bad stuffs shall we? I'm still knida freaked about it.



Fullmetal Alchemist has only ONE GIGABYTE LEFT! And that's gonna take another fifteen hours to download! So I'll hopefully be watching it by this weekend!


Shaman King still has another ten or so gigabytes, so that's gonna be a LONG while yet...

Ah well, I'd better go now.
See ya...

This place is dead

Monday, April 25, 2005
Current Mood: Meh
Current Music: Blink 182 - Shut Up

I've had a monday.
In other words, a good day, but a crap afternoon.

I didn't even get any earphones.

The otehr day I was walking past the door and the wire got caught on the handle and it ripped... So I was gonna buy one today after school. But instead of the tiny ones, I was going to get these giant fuck-off earphones, like the kind you get on hi-fi's.
Of course my friends didn't want this.

So I was in the centre with Jennifer and I go into Argos and see these amazing headphones that I want. But Jennifer didn't want me to get them cos she said that I would look like a freak. She had already convinced me into getting the smaller kind, but I just wanted to see if they had any of the big kind left in stock. So I typed in the number of the item into the stock thingy and Jen pressed cancel before it came up. She did this a few times so I said, "Fuck off."
And she took a wee hissie fit and stomped out the store.
And she says that I go off in a huff a lot.

So I left the earphones and went after her, but she was being all stubborn and stuff and ignored me for the most part. So I just walked home without her.

Arg, I'd better go now.

So long.

It takes more than good intentions to win in life

Sunday, April 24, 2005
Current Mood: Procrastinating
Current Music: Dashboard Confessional


Someone bought a PICTURE of a DS on eBay.
Go look!
And the guy bought it for $139.99!
The moral of the story is always read the label.

So yeah. I did have people round on Friday night after all. Except it was only Jen and Chaz.
Well, I wasn't gonna have anyone round in the first place, cos I had a cold and I was feeling all eugh and all. But after school I went up to Jens house where I installed the Sims2 for her. She then put in the Sims University (That she bought that day) and we started playing about for a bit. Then Chaz called her and asked what was happeneing. Long story short, we were gonna hang out at Jens and play the Sims2.
So Chaz came and we started to play the Sims2. It was a lot of fun really. But then Chris called and said that the pizzas had arrived. So I went home and ate my pizza on the pc as James, Emma and Chris ate theirs downstairs (They were round cos mum was away in Ireland). So just as I finished my pizza Jen and Chaz came over to see what I was doing and we just decided to hang out at mine.
We went on the pc and played about. Chaz started abusing my MSN contacts as Jen held me down so I wouldn't stop them. And wow, Jen is a LOT stronger than she looks. So they went on with that for a while, then they started having a kind of phone/webcam thing with Paul Hart and Daniel McKinlay. They kept wanting Jen to flash them...
Every once in a while James came upstairs to talk to us (Pissed out of his head). At one point he hugged Jennifer before hugging me and getting off with my shoulder.
I was terrified.
At about eleven they went home and I went to sleep at about twelve-ish.

I was going to go the the Halo tournament yesterday, btu I didn't feel up to it. And I had to help Chris clean the carpet after James spilt half a bottle of Jack Daniels over it.
It looks kinda clean now...

I betetr go and clean up before mum comes home. Which is soon I'm guessing.

So long.

Wishing I wasn't here

Friday, April 22, 2005
Current Mood: Exhausted
Current Music: None

I'm in computing again. I need to memorise a bloddy Expert System essay for a test this period...
Bah humbug.

I apoligise for last post. I was really really REALLY pissed off at the kids on MSN. Arg! They annoy me so.

I might be having friendlies over tonight. I dunno though. I got this really bad cold and I can't really be arsed with it. Who knows. They might come round they might not.

As you can see I've finally gotten Zim off of the background of this. There were MANY complaints on how people couldn't read it. And by many I mean one.
Look, when you've got three to four people reading this thing, one happens to count for a lot. It's about twentyfive per cent really...

AND I managed tp fix my downloads. Lucky gits. If it was messed up for good I would personally hunt each and every one of them down and fill their asses with thre gigabytes of my foot.

So yeah. If no one comes round then I'll probably spend most of the night fiddling with this thing and trying to get it to look better. My link thingies are working. See?
I changed "Recent posts" to "The old ones" or something to that effect. AND I added my faceparty account and my Deviantart account.

So yeah. My teacher is giving me evil eyes now, so I'd better do some work.

Here's a classic quote from Penny-Arcade. Why? Cos the old ones kick arse...

"'Ok, ok. Don't tell them you hate Kingdom Hearts' - Gabes head
'I HATE Kingdom Hearts!' - Gabe
'Crap! Crap! Do something!' - Gabes Head
'I LOVE Kingdom Hearts!' - Gabe
'What the Hell?' - Random People
'QUICK! Think fast!' - Gabes Head
'HAIR!' - Gabe
'That may have bee too fast...' Gabes Head"

Hope you enjoy this time

Wednesday, April 20, 2005
Current Mood: FUCKED UP
Current Music: Rise Against - Give it all


No, I do NOT give a shit about what your favourite Greenday songs are! NO! I do NOT want to see that crappy drawing of Billie-Joe!
Listen you little shit bag! If you nudge me one more time I swear to God-


YOU FUCKING ASS FUCKERS! You do NOT fucking nudge people for fucking fun!
Sure, invite about fifty more people to the conversation! I'm not trying to do anything at the moment. Oh look, my pc fucking crashed. What a fucking surprise.



And no. I do not give a fuck if Zim is still the fucking background on this thing. I will fix him when I can. Until then, just fucking deal.

And to put the icing on the fucking cake, my favourite comic is in danger of splitting. After over two hundred or so comics they have had a little tiff and are considoring abandoning it. Fan-fucking-tastic.

Contrary to what you are thinking right now, I actually had a really good day at school today. I had loads of fun and everything.


YOU LITTLE CUM BAG! I do not give a flying fuck if your birthday is in september.
Just don't fucking talk to me!

Yeah, I apoligise. This should really be put somewhere else designed for ranting. But I'm sick of these fuckers.
Sorry again.


A snowballs chance in Hell alright.

I can never forget what happened here

Monday, April 18, 2005
Current Mood: Goooood
Current Music: Jimmy Eat World - Work

Well I found something to do. And no, it wasn't homework...

I started writing again. But everything I wrote was doomed to failure.
"Doomed doomed DOOMED!"
"Doom do do di doomie"

Anyone whos ever watched Invader Zim will understand.
Anyone who doesn't watch it then... Go to Hell.
And yes, I DO have Zim as my background. He IS dead, but that's not the point...
I know it doesn't look right now, but I WILL fix it next time I'm on.


First day back at school today. It wasn't bad I guess.
I was afraid the Fitzy would ass rape me for not doing the essay. But he didn't. And I'm happy.

So I'm just sitting here doing a drawing right now. It's coming out pretty good really. I just hope I don't mess it up.

Yeah, nothing on the western front.

There was a good joke John told me in maths though. The joke itself wasn't very funny, but my reaction is kinda good.
Johnstarted with, "You know that the Hokey-pokey world champion died the other week?"
"There is a Hokey-pokey world champion?"
"Yeah, but listen..."
"I mean, how did they know? Was it the Olym-pokey-ics?"
"I mean, who would WANT to be Hokey-pokey champion?"
"Listen! Ok, it took them seven hours to get them in his coffin..."
"This is a joke isn't it?"
"They put his left arm in, they took his left arm out, they put his left arm in and they shook it all about!"
"Here's me thinking that the Hokey-pokey champion had died. Here's me thinking that there IS a Hokey-pokey champion, and you turn it into a joke."
And all the while John is laughing his ass off.

I dunno, you might of had to have been there to get it. It was funny.

Take me from this place, make me free

Saturday, April 16, 2005
Current Mood: Tired
Current Music: Live - Dance with you

I want to do something.

I don't know. I don't mean that like I want to do something else other than be on the computer.
I just want to do SOMETHING.

I don't know. I'm feeling really odd the now. Like I've got to make a decision and it's make or break time.

Infact, I might know what the choices are.

I might actually write something.
I've got my brain, I've got a keyboard infront of me. Why shouldn't I?

Ah yes, I need a story...

One day, everyone will lose

Friday, April 15, 2005
Current Mood: THIRSTY
Current Music: None

I'm about to go downstairs in a minute, but I'd like to say that I've been in this chair for over fifteen hours.


With the exception of toilet breaks and when I made dinner.

And my throat is so dry I'm afraid it's gonna be set on fire any second now...

Goddamn ye Bill Gates! Why'd you have to create the interweb?
Or did he?

*Dun dun dunnnn*



I'm sick of always being lost

Thursday, April 14, 2005
Current Mood: Bored
Current Music: Hoobastank - Remember Me

I have been sitting in front of the pc all fucking day.
I am bored out of my fucking mind.

I've spent the day listening to music, surfing the net, eating, reading RPs.... and as soon as I finish this I'm gonna start drawing.

So, yesterday.

Jen came round mine on time, but I wasn't ready. After that big post on how I was ready an hour and a half early and all.
So I brushed my teeth and packed my bag and we were off. We arrived at the station about twenty minutes early and talked until Daniel and Chaz came along. Heatherbelle couldn't make it because she was getting her hair cut.
So on the train we shouted at Daniel for a bit, then when we got into Glasgow we headed to the cinema to get our tickets. So Jen went up to the desk with her free ticket voucher thingies and asked for the Ring 2. But the lady couldn't give us Ring 2 tickets because it hadn't been out for long enough. So the only other options were Hitch and Constantine. Since we had already seen Hitch we picked Constantine.
We walked around Glasgow for a bit before it started, and I had a really nice Chicken and Mayonaise sandwhich...
The film was pretty good I think. It was all action filled and stuff. Yeah, a good film.
Jen, Chaz and Dan didn't like it all that much though.
I was practically asleep on the way back, and then I invited Jen and Chaz to mine for a bit.
We bought food and drink and went on the pc playing the Sims 2 and terrorising my MSN contacts for a bit. Then we went downstairs and played a bit of Strip Twister with no stripping (Sadly). I would've so won though. They were cheating left right and centre I tells ya.
Then Desperate Houswives came on, they watched that and afterwards they left. After that I watched another episode of Desperate Houswives before watching BRAND NEW SCRUBS!
I love that programme..

Yeah, Jen is making me finish this early. That's all that happened anyway...

So long

Amongst the madness there is me

Wednesday, April 13, 2005
Current Mood: Good
Current Music: Red Hot Chili Peppers - Fight Like a Brave

I is going out tooooday.
Yeah, I'm meeting up with Jen at half twelve or something to get to the train station, to meet up with friendlies to go into glasgow to go see the Ring 2.
*Takes a deep breath*
And right now it's about.... twenty to ten.
I'm showered, dressed and all nice looking for today.

But now I've got nothing better to do than randomly surf the net and talk to random people.


Chris had James and Emma over for about ten or twenty minutes last night, and I know I might've been all anti-social and stuff, but I was in some sort of zone!
Yeah, I'm juuuuust about to take a picture of it and put it on DA.

And I got another picture to upload. One that's a picture from outside my window. It came out pretty well really.

And now they're on DA!
Check it out

I'm gonna leave yas now. I'm bored, so I'll probably play a game or two.

*Beep beep beep beep*

Great... Some twat has just nudged me...

I remember when I still felt alive

Sunday, April 10, 2005
Current Mood: Goooood
Current Music: Blink182 - Adam's Song

"I never thought I'd die alone
I laughed the loudest who'd have known?
I trace the cord back to the wall
No wonder it was never plugged in at all
I took my time, I hurried up
The choice was mine I didn't think enough
I'm too depressed to go on
You'll be sorry when I'm gone

I never conquered, rarely came
16 just held such better days
Days when I still felt alive
We couldn't wait to get outside
The world was wide, too late to try
The tour was over we'd survived
I couldn't wait till I got home
To pass the time in my room alone

I never thought I'd die alone
Another six months I'll be unknown
Give all my things to all my friends
You'll never step foot in my room again
You'll close it off, board it up
Remember the time that I spilled the cup
Of apple juice in the hall
Please tell mom this is not her fault

I never conquered, rarely came
16 just held such better days
Days when I still felt alive
We couldn't wait to get outside
The world was wide, too late to try
The tour was over we'd survived
I couldn't wait till I got home
To pass the time in my room alone

I never conquered, rarely came
But tomorrow holds such better days
Days when I can still feel alive
When I can't wait to get outside
The world is wide, the time goes by
The tour is over, I've survived
I can't wait till I get home
To pass the time in my room alone"
Blink182 - Adam's Song

I want four songs played at my funeral.
Blink182 - Adams song
The Mars Volta - Televators
Clint Marshall Version - Requiem of a Dream
Greenday - Good Ridance (Only if I die before Maddy)

Funny. Two of those songs are about suicide.

I've had a really fun weekend.


I got sweets with Jen. And together we spent around fifteen punds on sweets and drinks. The lady behind the till gave us looks that made us feel like pies.
So I went home, got all showered and ready and stuff. Then Heatherbelle texted me asking if she could come twenty minutes early. So I said yes, then Jen asked if she could bring her stuff round early, so she just stayed with me and Heather.
Chaz came round late. And we sat watching tv and ordered pizza, then we ate the pizza. THEN they decided to watch a show called Bikini Beach on the wrestling channel. It was just this girl standing in a bikini and talking to the camera about random crap in her day while people phoned in to guess the competition behind her.
The competition thingy was a picture of Kate Moss, and beside her were eight sets of lips. And you had to guess which lips belonged to her. Now, we were convinced that we knew the answer. So the next ten minutes was epnt by them holding me down while trying to get the phone and dial.
Now don't get me wrong, I was just as convinced as they were. But I didn't want to risk being wrong and for "Bikini Beach" to come up under the phone bill.
So as I was wrestling for the phone, some other guy got through and said our answer. And we all waited with baited breath...
"Sorry wrong answer"
But no no no. NOW they were convinced it was another answer. So they tried to dial it up again. Then my mum came home.
Now picture this scene.
Me on the couch, with two girls sitting on top of me, with a third girl breathing heavily holding the phone, and the tv showing a girl wearing nothing but a bikini.
Not the best situation.

After that we went to to video store and rented Saw, Alfie and mum got Spiderman2.

So we went back, got changed into our PJs (Even though it was only eight) and watched Alfie.
It's an ok film I guess. We weren't paying much attention to it to be honest. And by the end of it we were all like "What the Hell?"
Then we watched Saw. It was more funny than scary to be honest. Every ten minutes or so they wanted me to turn it off. It was kinda freaky though. Imagine, some one had to write sick shit like that.
After that we watched A Cinderella Story. TIS CRAP I TELLS YA! Tis even crappier the second time round.
So after that it was about hald three in the morning. So we spent the rest of the night talking.
By the time we went to sleep it was about half six.


I got woken up by mum at about nine as she was going out. So we got up and had breakfast which consisted of leftover sweets from the night before.
Then I got the Game of Life down from the attic and we played that. But just as we finished Charlotte had to go.
Jen and Heatherbelle hung around for a bit more before going home themselves.

Then mum made me go out to B&Q with her. And every time we stopped to look at something I literally bent over the trolley and dozed.
So as soon as I got home I just went to bed, with my clothes on and everything. I expected to wake jup at about five or sixish. So I was happy.


Well, the unexpected happened.
I woke up at about nine. And I was like "What the Hell?"
Yeah, I had tro go to the centre with mum. But it wasn't all that bad. She bought me a nice blue t-shirt that was pretty good. And a kinda brown/grey shirt that had Hong Kong Fuey on the front!

Ah well.

"'Ebidi ebidi ebidi... That's all fucks!' - Cycon
'Dude, it says folks.' - Stage hand
'Folks!' - Cycon"

Stop the sun from rising

Friday, April 08, 2005
Current Mood: Good
Current Music: Blink182 - When you fucked Grandpa

So little time to do them in...

I need to get ready and go out to Safeway with Jen to buy many sweets and drinks for tonight.
I need to clean the house...


I can't handle another one! I've neglected the others too much already!
AND I haven't finished MY first comic either!


*Head explodes*

This is the same old story of growing up and getting lost

Wednesday, April 06, 2005
Current Mood: Good
Current Music: Less Than Jake - Last hour of the last day of work

Don't have much time to talk.

I've (almost) arranged everything for the sleep over on friday.
Heatherbelle might be able to come though.
Twill be annoying if she doesn't come. But it'll be fine without her I guess.

Easter school hasn't been too bad though. Last day of tomorrow though, thank God.
To be honest it has helped me with quite a few things. But that doesn't mean that I need to like it.

Bargh. I got into a deep discussion with some one on MSN today, and by the end of it i couldn't stand her. She was just so idiotic.

I put up a few good new pictures on deviantArt. Not that anyone who reads this will be interested.
I'm not sure if anyone actually reads this at all anymore.

Hark! I hear my brother calling!
I'd better go.

There's no other way

Monday, April 04, 2005
Current Mood: Exhaustiminated
Current Music: Azure ray - Displaced

Busy weekend.
Busy busy busy busy busy.
And a busy day too.

Saturday was spent at the Halo tournament thing.
Fletch didn't come, Jenky didn't come, and my bro didn't come. So I was hanging about with Fubu, William and Fro for most of the night.
Jen, Chaz, Heatherbelle and Dan came up too. They came up twice and hung about for about ten minutes before leaving. Their reactions were so funny. It was like:
"Why is it dark in here? Are all these people afraid of sunlight?"
"It smells in here."
"I've never seem so many tvs or games in my life!"
"Oh my God! The one in the red keeps looking at us!"
"Joe, have these guys even seen a girl before?"
"Oh my God! He's still looking!"
"These guys are kinda geeky... No offence Joe."
It was really funny.

I had a great time too. Except the two V two was a bit... Odd.

Since Feeney wasn't there and Jenky was a way in Austria, I had no one to play two V two with. So when the sign ups were called I just stood by the desk thingy in order to catch some one who didn't have a partner.
"Do you have a partner?"
*Joe looks around*
"Who the Hell?"
"Down here."
*Joe looks down and sees tiny kid*
"Oh. Hi."
"Do you have a partner?"
"Um... No."
"Can I be your partner! Please! I'm really good! I practice with my brother all the time!"
"Uh... Sure, why not?"
"Great! Now come here and sign up for me!"
"Ok then. What's your name?"
"Euan, but call me Moon cos that's my player name!"
"Sure, I'm Joe."
"Is that your player name?"
"No, it'sLeto."
"Cool! Now sign us up!"
*Reads sheet*
"What do you want our team name to be?"
"Oh I dunno... You choose!"
*Joe looks at some guys t-shirt*
"Airwalk it is."
"Fantastic! I'll see you later Leto!"
"See ya kid."

He wasn't too bad to be honest. He almost got just as many kills as me, but we still lost and didn't get through to the second round. It didn't bother me much, since I was used to the whole not winning thing. But he was really gutted since it was his first tournament and all.
It was hilarious though. He introduced me to his mum about three times. He kept going "Mum! Mum! This is Leto, the guy I'm playing with!"
And I'd be like, "Hi."
"I'm sorry, this is his first time here. I hope he's not bothering you."
"Nah. He's pretty good to be honest. I'd better go."
And his mum hung about for about half an hour, and every time some one swore she would grimace a bit and look around for who ever had done it.

So yeah, a fun day.

Sunday i had to get up early and catch a train into Glasgow with Maddy, Rooney, HenMc and Laura. It was such a nice day aswell.
So we got into Glasgow and decided to go to Fop, which is like a music store, but we never reached it. Outside the Rennie Mackintosh hotel we got stopped by surveyer people. I thought it was gonna be a five minute thing, but they took us inside and it took twenty minutes as we answered questions and tasted different kinds of bottled water. It wasn't bad I guess.
After that we headed to Borders to meet up with Benn. When we got there I headed to the Manga section to look out for some books (I didn't find them), then I talked to Maddy and Benn, then I went back to the books. When I went to look for them again they were gone and all that was left was Laura and a pissed off JenMc. Aparently Maddy had ditched us and went off with Benn, Ollie and Rooney. So we decided to do stuff by ourselves.
We went to Gregs, then headed for Forbidden Planet where I bought a really good Futurama poster (For the first episode) and I bought the thrid volume of Shaman King.
But more on that later.
I then got my lunch and we met up with Maddy again. We were gonna go to Virgin, but Maddy and all that just walked off without us again so we went tot the top of Buchannen (Sp?) street and sat on the big steps and took pictures. It was really fun.
Then they (NOT we) decided to walk all the way to the Transport Museum, which is really far away. So we walked really far away only to have to get the underground back cos it was time to go home.

So that evening I had dinner, sat down, and read Shaman King.
Seriously! It is just so amazing! I WANT THEM ALL!

Had to go to Easter school today. Five hours of boringness.
Our teachers can't even speak proper english either.
Ah well, I suppose it's for a good cause. Yes, passing my highers is a good cause.
Well... It's not a bad cause I guess. So it SHOULD be a good one.
Or maybe it's just a cause.
I dunno.

Can't wait till mum comes home. Then i can sort out the sleep over on friday and all will be well.
Until sunday when I have to study.