Sleepwalking my way through life: October 2004

I'd rather die on my feet than live on my knees. That's a promise

Saturday, October 30, 2004
Current Mood: Hungry
Current Music: Seether Ft Amy Lee- Broken


It's like... 20.20 and dinner hasn't been made!!!

I'M STARVING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I made a cd cover for my band earlier tonight.
Oh yeah, I'm in a band.
Well, a band of sorts. We don't actually have any songs. Or get together. Or play really.
I play trumpet in it. I haven't played trumpet in a few years but I'm sure I can pick it up again.
Anyway, here's the album cover for our band Chasing Litter

It's actually just a picture of Maddy and Mark, but since it's a good pic we thought it would be good for a cd cover.
And there it is!

*Is so excited*

I'm going paintballing tommorow. I can't wait. There's about 50 guys going and we're going to play in one giant death-match type thing. It's going to be SO much fun. I'm gonna kick ass and take names.
Or I'm gonna get shot a lot. You never really know these things...

Today was a.... Decent day I guess. I got reeeeeeeeeeeally late and almost missed drama. I packed my bag with my drawings, script, cd player, cds and my jacket before mum gave me a lift to the Arts Centre. Went in and found that we were doing our show in 4weeks. So we went over everything again and I asked Nadia about the script I handed in. She said "Oh, sorry Joe. The show is getting too long and i couldn't put your idea in. Sorry. It was good though"
Don't patronize me.
So we spent the rest of the session practising all this boring crappy stuff that we've done a BAZILLION times before. The singing is ok. The girl who sings it (Ryannan, I think thatz how you spell it) is amazing at singing so she kinda brings it up. She also used to go to brownies with Jen. And Jens mum used to be the leader...
*Evil laugh*
She could prob give me great dirt in Jen. The potential for hilarity is very high...
So I walked home after it. And I got out my cd player and turned it on. But, the idiot I am, I forgot to bring ear phones. I even packed one of the best albums on existance (Less Than Jake- Anthem) and I forgot my head phones!!!!
*Slaps forehead*

So I got back home, had a few Jaffa Cakes before going upsatirs to clean my room and do my homework. Which actually consisted of me reading my magazine for ages before taking notes off my English essay.

Bored now...
I'm going to go off and scavenge some food....

Sleepwalking through life

Friday, October 29, 2004
Current Mood: In the mood for a big long rant!
Current Music: Back To The Future- Johnny B.Goode


That's all you can really say after a week like mine. Let me tell ya...
For one thing. It's been the LONGEST week in the history of weeks. Even though it's only been a 4day school week, it's still dragged on for an eternity.

So what has happened since I last posted? A whole damn lot.


I woke up after another crap nights sleep to find that I slept in. Mum was away in Manchester for another night (She's going every wek now) so she couldn't wake me up. It was annoying. So I get up and rush out the door while stuffing my face wioth toast. I got school to arrive at double Physics first.
Dear God I hate Rosenburg. He just went on and on and on and on. And he ruined a perfectly fun experiment by messing it up. He had to create a vacuum in a glass beaker and weigh it. First he weighed it while it was full of air, then used this cool pump thing to suck out the air, then he measured it again. Here's the odd part. It was heavier. It should've been the opposite way round. We had a bit of a laugh but it still got me kinda fed up. Then Louie was being annoying. She wouldn't stop talking. I think she must have the lung capacity of a whale or something like that with the lack of breaths she took. And then she... Nah, forget it. Lets just say I was in a massive bad mood after wards.
So it was break time. And I made my way over to the usual wall where we stand and talk and bitch and other random shit. So I got there and they instantly started getting at me cos of my costume. They were comenting on how it would be a dress and stuff like that. I shouted at them, they left.
Fucking perfect.
Then maths. That wasn't too bad I guess. Just crappy stuff that we've done over and over and over again. Kinda like Rosenburg. Anyway, we got to leave early to have lunch before the trip, and I just hung around with Maddy and all that. Twas fun I guess. Then we got to the bus. We had this kind of seating thing for the bus. I would sit beside John cos I like talking to him about taking over the world, but we would sit infront of Maddy so we could both listen to music over my CD player and her MP3. But the bus had three seats on one side and two seats on the other. And in all the moving about we got our seats confused and stuff. It ended up with me sitting on the edge with Laurence sitting between me and Maddy. And across from me was Mark with no one beside him. JP was behind me and kept annoying me for the whole trip there, and John was a few hundred seats infront of me. I couldn't talk to Mark much. I was either leaning over Laurance to share head phones with Maddy or we had nothing to talk about.
We finally made it to Edinburgh and got to the theatre. We got to our seats and I sat down in a decent seat between John and JP (Oh goody). But I needed a piss really badly. And so did about 3 other guys so we all got up and edged our way to the edge of the seats and stood in a group infront of this skinny little blonde usher person.
"Where are you going?"
"Right then. You need to hurry up though, this is a locked door performance so the doors are shut as soon as it starts. Which is about 30 seconds."
"Where are the toilets then?"
"Sorry, we only have single stalls. But there are some at each corner of the area. Oh, twenty seconds now"
We all looked at each other and ran. We kinda split up and ran as fast as we could to the corners where the doors were. I bursted into my toilet, relieved myself and shot back out and into my seat. The girls infront were looking at me and wondering how I could pee so fast. I know this cos they asked me.
"How'd you do that?"
"Go so fast!"
And then the play started. It was ok i guess. So characters were different than I expected, and some were just really crap. But there was this sword fight at the end between Hamlet and Leartes that was very class. That sort of scene could either make or break a play. But it was really good, and quite realistic.
Then the bus ride home.
That wasn't so bad. I swapped places with Mark so he could talk to Maddy and I could listen to my CDs in peace. I did this for an hour or so before my mum phoned up on my mobile. It was around 6 and she was wondering why I wasn't home yet. I let her rant at me for a bit about how I was out at the centre and about how I was grounded and stuff before I said "I'm on the bus"
"I don't care! You're still in trouble!"
"Mum. I'm on the bus from Edinburgh"
"I just finished watching Hamlet. It was quite a good play, some bad acting but it was still good"
"And I'll be home about the time I said I was gonna be. Maybe about 10minutes later depending if I could get a lift or not. Is that alright?"
"Ok then. I'll see you when you get in"
The rest of the trip was fun too. I started talking to Laura and Jennifer (Another one. There are so many...) about guys and girls. They asked questions about guys and I asked questions about girls. Soon Maddy joined, then Mark, and Paul even woke up from his sleep to have some input. The information will be very useful. And then I walked home. It was fun I guess.
Then I got home. Had dinner. And I just finished it as mum walked in. She was all tired from work so I didn't bring up the phone call. I talked to her about the play and stuff and she said "Well that's it for this week"
"You've seen the play, you went out on Monday and you've got paintball on saturday"
"No sunday, and what do you mean 'That's it?'"
"You're not going out until next week"
"WHAT?!?!? I've got the Key, the school disco and Frances' party!"
"Oh yeah. You can go to the party and the disco but not they Key"
"Fine then"
"What? If that's your tone then you can't go to anything then."
"That's crap. That's crap and you know it"
"Go to your room. Now"
"Doesn't stop it from being crap"
So I went up to my room and started drawing for a while. I got a good picture going aswell. It's like a guy walking with his friends but while they're all happy and stuff he's being all down. Of course this has absoloutly NOTHING to do with me. Anyway, my mum came up and said that I can go to one thing out of the three. She said that I had to go paintballing cos I had already paid for it but i could only choose one of the other three.
So I chose the school disco cos I had already paid for THAT too and i could always skip the Key and Frances won't mind (Much) if I miss her party. Still annoying though.
Watched some of James Bond before going to bed.

That's right people. That was only one day. This shows how looooooooooooong my week was.


RMCE first. Feeney stole my seat so he could sit behind Jen. He likes her so much it's really obvious. I'd be scared if I was her. Anyway, we had to go to an assembly so we all went in to the hall and sat down and got our supported study sheets. Then we got the talk about supported study and stuff like that. After that had ended Mr. McPartlin came on and started talking about the schools merging. He really annoys me. He started off by saying "There are two lines to the school prayer that really relate to us at the moment"
*Shoots himself*
He went on to say that if we wanted lockers, common rooms and stuff like that then we should ask and when we return to the school we can enjoy them.
Hello? What year are we in?
By the time the schools finished we'll be in Uni you dumbass. We won't be able to enjoy the pleasures of a sodding common room. Then a girl infront of me put her hand up and asked if we were getting a formal. And he said that he's too busy, and if he doesn't help then no other teachers will help. So we ain't getting one.
How shit is that?
I know that I might not be there next year, but it's still shit that we're not getting one because you twats are too busy with your heads up your asses to do anything about it.
And we've got this crap traffic system in one of the buildings. You're only supposed to go one way on one floor and another way on the second. So instead of turning right to the class that's two doors down from your other one, you have to go down the stairs, round, then back up again and follow the system again to get your class. So it takes longer to get there and stuff. Idiots.
School finished and I got home literally 2seconds before Chris. He came in the door and shouted "DON'T GO ON THE PC" and he said that if he went on that night then I could have friday night. Which Iwas all happy with. So I watched some tv and got dressed up in my Grim Reaper outfit.
It wasn't too bad. I ripped the neck and I pulled at the sleeves and hem to make it less clingy. I had some trousers on underneath and stuff so it still looked black. then I got this string and tied it round my waist to make it look better. I kept the hood down. With that up I would've been an absoloute idiot. I got a lift off of Jen who was this fallen-angel-cat-thingy. She looked quite nice, except her curled hair went kinda straight. That was funny. She should curl it more often, it looks nice. Then Dan came in a suit with a red fork and he spiked his hair to make it look like devil horns. Heatherbelle followed and she was this kind of cat-girl thing. She looked quite nice too, except the cold was making her really bitchy. At least I think it was the cold that made her bitchy... Chaz was late by about 20mins and she was wearing this purple-sparkly dress which was also nice. She was wearing wings too and had brought fairy dust. Needless to say that by the end of the night I was covered with it.
So we went in and it was loud and stuff. I saw Laura inside, she was being a vampire, and I talked to her. But she went away cos she was paranoid that my friends didn't like her or something. I talked to a group of guys that were dressed up as Resevior Dogs (VERY cool), then I talked to the girls who were all angels. Then some more guys came in dressed as women. And some of them were really convincing too. I was like "Who's that? Oh my God it's -"
Twas funny.
The music was crap though. Any good songs they played they were cut off right before the decent bits. I didn't dance. Well I tried not to dance. The first time I did it was when I was talking to Emma and a good song came on. So she took my hand and started dancing while I just stood there.Then she started moving me to make me dance but I still resisted. Then she said "If you don't dance right now I'm gonna ram this wand up your ass!"
And I danced.
Not for long though. I hate dancing. I really do. I feel like an idiot when I do it and that I'm the only one. So it was kinda depressing when Jen and Dan were dancing together and Heatherbelle and Chaz were dancing while I was just standing there watching. I jumped up and down a bit during one song, but that just made me feel worse. Then everyone, EVERYONE, started trying to make me dance. It was fun yet depressing at the same time. By the end of it I just wanted to get home. I was really feeling down and shit.
I couldn't get to sleep. I kept drifting in and out of a doze until just past 1 when I finally dropped off.

Come on. Hang in there guys. Only one more day to go...


And thank God it was friday indeed. I was knackered when I got up. And I had to go to school and everything. Chemestry first. I was still feeling kinda down from last night and Maddy was wondering what was wrong. I just said I was tired, which I was really, and she left it at that. Then we made a very average video full of very average people and very average conversations. It was odd though. I had two pics taken of me. The first one I looked like a "cute wee baby" and the other one I was a "cute wee puppy"
Ah well, at least I'm cute.
Then it was break where my friendlies made fun of my for the 2 seconds that I jumped around with my scythe in the air. Should've seen what they were doing the fucking gits. I mean, Danny tried to feel up the girls so many times it was just pathetic. Make fun of me? Yeah, look in the mirror.
Oh crap it's finally happened. I've ran out of insults!!
Anyway, we had a period of maths that consisted of me and John talking about stem cells and how we could create a race of superhumans out of them. I didn't care though. I was more excited by the prospect of growing wings.
Now that would be cool.
PE was next. Badminton. The sport that I used to love that I now hate. I used to be good at it too. I would play Feeney every week in the community centre, but now I'm just clumsy and fumbly. Then at the end Mr.Collins made us jog around the hall which was ok I guess. Then he said "30 seconds left. Quicken your pace!" And I was jogging beside 4 or 5 other guys and one said "3. 2. 1. Go!" and they broke into a race. So I joined them. It was so much fun too. I came in 3rd or something. But one of the guys collapsed on the floor when he was done and just lay there breathing heavily.
Twas very funny.
Then I went to the village for lunch with Feeney. That was slightly more fun than usual, since I actually bought food this time. Then when I got back up i handed in my yearbook forms to my big bro (Head of the year book commity) and picked up my personal study essay. I was expecting a few corrections but when I turned the page I was almost blinded by the amount of highlighter pen used to highlight all the mistakes. And he wrote a ton of suggestions on the back page. Like I needed more quotes and need to keep it formal and stuff.
Ok then.
Then it was double computing. We were doing an assesment on the first half and I was getting really frustrated with it. I had changed a whole load of coding and it still didn't work. And when I ran it and it came up with "Compiling Error" so I shouted at the screen "You bastard!"
And the class (Of a total of 6) turned to look at me and the guy beside me said "Come on Joe that was a bit harsh"
"Yes that was a bit harsh" the substitute said behind me "And I hope not to hear it again"
"Sorry miss, I'm just frustrated"
"It better not happen again"
Then the next period we were doing boring revision. I almost fell asleep.
Then I went home on the bus with Jen and Feeney. The bus was packed and I got a few dirty looks from an old lady who was bitching about how many kids there were. My hair was wet and I just tried to (fruitlessly) flatten it and droplets went everywhere. So she gave me a look and I heard her comment on my "scruffyness"
Just cos my hair is wet, and curly, and my trousers are dirty, and my shirt is all messed up, and my shoes were caked with mud does not mean I'm scruffy.
Oh wait, it does.
Then I got home and went on the PC. And here I am now.

Jeeeeeeeeeeeeeeesus! How long is this thing? Tell ya what, it's taken me 6 hours to write this thing. 6 HOURS!!! Told ya I had a long week. And I've spent most of it writing this damn thing! Heh heh.

And now, if you excuse me, my fingers will fall off

You can't keep me down. I'll always get up. Always.

Tuesday, October 26, 2004
Current Mood: Rantworthy
Current Music: Less Than Jake- That's why they call it a union


It really is!!
I'm dressing up as the Grim Reaper you see. And I picked out a scythe (Plastic),and I saw this ok looking costume looking thing in a card store. So I bought it today. Cost me about.... £15? Yeah, £15. I got a lot of jokes thrown my way for carrying the sycthe about.
"Where else can I put it?"
"Up your ass!"
Oh, how hilarious. Please stop me from giggling, I can't breathe. Get real.
So I walked home with this scythe by my side, getting a lot of looks as I pass. Yeah! It's a fucking scythe! Hey man, you don't look so good yourself. Is that a second head growing out of your nose? And you, let me see your face for a sec... HOLY SHIT!!! How many colours are on there!
So, I got home and throw my stuff down and watch "American High School Project" or something like that. And I read my magazine that just came through the door. And I'm feeling a little better. Then I pull out my costume and try it on. The good thing about it is that it isn't NYLON
Wait, did I say good thing? ITS FUCKING STRETCH STUFF. I put it on and instead of hanging loose it clings on to me. The arms are a little too short too. And another thing. IT ONLY GOES TO MY FUCKING KNEES. It's supposed to go to my ankles for Chrissake! Look! The man on the box has his to his ankles!
Oh wait.
Fuck the man on the fucking box.
And the hood is tiny! My head should disappear in it for Gods sake! It shouldn't reach my forehead and stop!!!


I need to go places in that thing aswell! The school fucking disco and Frances' fucking party. I'm gonna need to wear black trousers, and a long t-shirt, and I need to stretch it out.

I was in a really bitchy mood yesterday too. I got home after a good day out with my friendlies and watched some tv. It was ok I guess. Until about 6. When I got bitchy. I just felt so fed up and fucked up. So I made dinner, and was better for a while. Then my mum came in. And I really went off.
She was like "Put away the dishes. Make your bed.Help me dry these pots. Clean up the living room"
Shut the fuck up! Chris has had his ass planted infront of that fucking pc ever since he got home, and HE isn't being asked to do anything. Leave me in fucking peace!
And I kinda snapped at her.
I didn't even remember what I said, or why i said it. I just snapped. And she got kinda hurt cos she thought I was mad at her for something. She got all happy at the end of the night though. Gave me chocolate.

Monday (The actual day) was fun too. Went out to Pizza Hut with Jen, Chaz and Dan. Dan was like 25mins late so we went in and started without him. It was funny though. He came in and Jen and Chaz shouted at him for some stuff that happened over the hols and he wouldn't order anything except a drink cos he was too scared to ask.
Twas funny
Then we walked around the centre and stuff. Jen and Chaz kept pretending that they fancied me and were pure trying to feel me up and stuff. Not seriously though. They were just being odd. And believe me. It was odd.
And I bought a new beads too. I was playing about with my old ones in Pizza Hut and the beads literally flew off it and onto my plate. So I got new ones for about £3. It came with a braclet thingy (Sp?) but I lost that...

I'm going to see Hamlet tommorow!
We're going with our English class into Edinburgh and going to see it. Twill be good. And I get half a day outta class.

Wow. This is a semi-long rant....

What did I do to deserve this fate worse than death?

Sunday, October 24, 2004
Current Mood: Good
Current Music: Greenday- Favourite Son

That's right people


I'M BACK!!!!!!!!!!!

I just got back from my dads house a bit ago. AND i've also moved the blog back to it's original site.
*Must remember to tell Michael*
So... Yeah.

My dads house was... Ok.
Everything was so organised. He actually had stuff planned out for us in advance. I couldn't do anything myself! Like I wanted to meet up with Michael in Oxford to see a film or something. So I asked my dad and he was like "When?"
"I dunno, tomorrow maybe"
"You can't, you're doing your homework"
"Ok then, how about the day after"
"We're going to see Grandad"
"And after that?!"
"You're helping me with the front drive and we're going to PCWorld to look at computers"
So I didn't get to see him. I'm probably going to go down during New Years, so I might see him then...

Bah Humbug i say to yas.

Am going out with my friendlies tommorow though. Wesa going to Pizza Hut. Twill be fun. And I will see my friends.
Which is always fun in it's twisted little ways.

Oh yeah. And I dumped Justine.
It was last Saturday and she was MSN. It was the first time I got ahold of her in ages. I had tried phoning her on Friday to say that the Key was closed and that we could go to the cinema. I only had her moby number and that was off so I couldn't get her so I went to the cinema with my friendlies instead.
So I was talking to her on MSN and I was like "It was really annoying that I couldn't reach you on Fri"
"I left my phone at Erins house so I couldn't get it"
"It was still annoying though"
Then I dumped her. I don't remember EXACTLY what happened. I just said that she was too far away and hard to reach. Then she wanted to still be friends and I said sure and she said "Good cos then there's more chance of us goin out agen :P"
And I'm like ok then

I still like her and all. Well, not as much now, but I still like her.


I'll be listening when you call

Saturday, October 16, 2004
Current Mood: Good. Very good. AMAZINGLY good
Current Music: Yellowcard- Believe

Everything is gonna be alright, everything is gonna be alright, everything is gonna be alright, be strong believe

I LOVE Yellowcard!
They seriously rule!

Anyway... I'M GOING TO SEE GREENDAY!!!!!!!!


Wheeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!! I'm in such a fantastic mood!

The ice inside consumes all

Thursday, October 14, 2004
Current Mood: Accomplished
Current Music: Get Up Kids- The Lion and the Lamb


I finished my script. Finally.

I tried writing it on Tuesday, but the comp kept crashing in the middle of it. So I had written it a million times before I settled on that version. It ain't too good though. The whole theme thingy is crap. We gotta come up with positive points of being a teenager and it's full of shit. All the good things there are we can't do. We can't do anything about sex or anything that makes the audience think about sex. It really narrows down the options that we have. And then we have to come up with crappy things like going to the cinema or summit....

Am currently trying to fix things with my friendlies. It's going kinda well. I think... I've gotten them talking to me at least....

Can't be arsed writing so I'm off....
Oh yeah!
I got a new sig too....
Here it is
So... Yeah

I am only one, how can I stand against the many?

Current Mood: Thoughtful
Current Music: Yellow Card- Only One

There is one thing that I look to in the future. The indisputible fact that all this will end. Everything will end. I will end.

My current MSN name. I dunno where it came from. I just pulled it out of my head. Kinda like the titles for my blogs. They just happen.
Weird huh?

*Is guilty*

I'm not doing my English essay like I'm supposed to... I just keep writing random crap for it which won't help anything. All I'm on about is the fact that Yossarian has been traumatised by Snowdens gruesome death. It's such a shame. The guy, Snowden, was shot in the leg, so Yossarian was cleaning him up and healing the wound. But Snowden kept saying "I'm cold, I'm cold" and all Yossarian could say was "There, there," Yossarian healed the wound up nicely, but then Snowden indicated to his armpit, so Yossarian opened his flak suit to find that a piece of metal had tore a hole through his chest. And all his guts and blood and some of his dinner came out. And the poor guy was still alive. And the chapter ended by saying:
"'There there,' Yossarian comforted him.
'I'm cold'
'There there'"

It's such a shame.... But anyway, it's an amazing book.

I got back into my Drama group, so I'm currently writing a script for it. I'm hoping that if I appear with a script in my hand then Nadia will forget all about my missing a last session.

But what has happened in the last few days, I hear you ask. Well, not much to tell the truth. My friends are still hating me, school still sucks, and the weather is getting crappier. Ain't life so pleasant?
Feeney's being annoying though. Everytime I see him it's like "When are you making up with them? When are you coming back to the table? They don't hate you by the way, I asked them. So when you coming back huh huh?"
And I'm like "Get bent. They do fucking hate me. If you heard half the things they say to me behind my back you'll realise it too"
"They don't. And they're better than the freaks you hang about with"
"They aren't freaks. And they're nice to me. This is a totally new experience for me Feeney! These guys actually don't make fun of me!I haven't experienced that in so long!"
I got a laugh outta that, but he still continued.
"Just make upwith them why don'tcha? They said that they haven't fallen out with you" (Aye right) "It's you that's fallen out with them."
"Ok then Feeney, let me ask you this. If I did go up to them and asked to make up, what do you think the answer would be?"
And that shut him up. He started going on about the "gimp" that races him home. He's this short ginger guy that walks faster than him. And he hates him for it.
He can really crack me up sometimes.

*Spins in chair*

I'm gonna go now... I can't be arsed writing much more and I need to concentrate on my script....

Release me from the Hell that is life

Tuesday, October 12, 2004
Current Mood: Devious....
Current Music: none (Watching Stargate)


Stargate is on!!!!
Heh heh

I messed up my comp. I was playing about with the Task Manager and I accidentally deleted the Start menu and the Menu bar...
And all the icons are gone too!!


As if I have a choice

Current Mood: Rebelious
Current Music: Greenday- Minority

Before I say anything about thses past few days, I'm gonna finish what happened on Sunday...


As I was saying. We went into the Art Gallery. It was all quiet and stuff, barely anyone in there except for some old people and a few security guards. It was dead nice. And we went upstairs and sat on this bench and started watching this movie. We were all close together and all. And I looked to her, she looked to me. And we started to lean in.
We looked round and there was a security guard watching us and coughing loudly. We laughed and got up to go round the rest of the building.
We went out again and walked round the rest of Glasgow. I bought a Happy Tree Friends poster. It's so cool. It puts most of the characters in their most gruesome poses. I recomend this site for anyone who love cute cuddly things. You'll love it....

*Evil laugh*

And then I got home, had dinner, did some homework and went to bed...
Exciting huh?

Ok now. Monday was, how should I put it? Ah yes, long.
It started out kinda crap. I was really tired when I got up and I almost fell asleep on the floor... Anyway, I got up and went to school. Things were fine and dandy there. Until it started at least.
The day went so slowly after that. English dragged on, followed by an amazingly short break, then maths. Maths wasn't too bad. Me and John always have a good laugh. Then it was RMCE, but that's always boring. It wasn't too bad though.
But when it came to lunch....
It started out great and everything, all laughin and joking and shit. But then the conversation turned on me somehow. And they wouldn't shut the fuck up. They kept going on and on and on. Trying to wind me up and shit.
And it worked.
They just kept talking and talking. Making fun of me and Justine, making fun of my hair, making fun of me in general. And I punched the table. Not just a tap, but a full fucking punch. Oddly enough it didn't hurt as much as punching a wall...
And then I stormed off and went about with Maddy and all that.
I ignored them at the canopy on the way out too. I was so pissed off at them.
Then when I got home Jen texted me, asking me what's up. And I told them how they went too fucking far and shit. Then she got all weird and shit.

Next day (Today) I ignored them until lunch when I sat down with them. THAT was the wrong descision. They either ignored me, threw dirty looks my way or started with the making fun of me. And Danny was joining in with them. yeah, ok then. Just because I've been talking to you more does NOT mean I won't bash your face in when you make fun of me.
*Innocent Smile*
Anyway, I was talking to Feeney and he said "What you doin?"
"Running a marathon. What does it look like?"
"Fine, what you in next"
"I dunno. I might just go home"
"What? Dog it?"
"Why not?"
And so I dogged it. The first time I ever have done too. It was boring, but at least I didn't have to do Chemestry. I really couldn't be bothered with that...

And that is my day. Except Jen called me again, askin me why went home. Why does she give a fuck? It's not like any of them like me. I think they've not-liked me for a while, but who cares?
Tons of people I know were telling me to fall out with them and stuff. 3 of them have never met them, but they're still saying it. It's kinda comical in a way....

Anyway, I'm gonna change the website to this.
Just so my friends can't get to it.
They're bound to read some stuff on this and get pissed off or annoyed at me or some random shit like that.
See yas!

I can't even recognise my own face

Sunday, October 10, 2004
Current Mood: Tired
Current Music: Less Than Jake- Sleep It Off

By legs are so sore!!!!

I've been walking round Glasgow with Justine ALL DAY and my legs are almost dead because of it... Twas worth it though.
It was so much fun. It was just me and her this time, no friends involved, and it was great. I was pure terrified that we'd run out of things to talk about, but we didn't. No awkwardness or nothing.
I got the train in at 12.15 or summit, and there was a group of kids that got on at the Busby stop, and one of them was drunk out of his mind. It had just past 12 and he was completely pissed. He started shouting and spitting and singing songs and stuff. All his friends were trying to calm him down and stuff while I was laughing my head off.
So I got to Glasgow Central, met up with Justine, and we just started walking. We walked everywhere. At first we were looking for a place that sold Halloween costumes (for me) but we ended up walking in random directions and going into random shops. It was really fun. We went into McD's for lunch, and walked some more. We even went into the Galleries. We were just walking past the guy on the horse with a traffic cone on his head and we looked at the building behind it. "Have you ever been in there?" I was asked.
"What is it?"
"I think it's some sort of Art Gallery..."
"Come on then"
"What? Don't we have to pay?"
"No, I saw a free admission thing back there"
And we went in!
We went in on our own! No one forcing us or anything! We are so smart!!!!
It was ok I guess... Not too good.


I g2g....

I'll write in more on Tuesday though....

I slip away

Wednesday, October 06, 2004
Current Mood: Sick
Current Music: Greenday- Warning

To sleep, perchance to dream. Ay there's the rub; for in that sleep of death what dreams may come

I love that play!
It's so cool! Especially when it's being acted out. And another great thing about it is that everyone dies. EVERYONE. Well, except this one guy who lives on to tell the tale. But that's it!
Tis great.

I got soaked on the way to school this morning. It was chucking it down and I got drenched within 10mins. The rain ran through my jacket and onto my shirt, where it left a yellow-brown parabola on my back and some of my front. It did NOT look nice.
The rest of the day was actually quite decent. The periods kinda went really quickly. And we finished Hamlet in english. Which is good and bad though. Good cos it's a good play and it was fun to read/watch, but bad cos we now have to write an essay on it.
There's not much else to comment about for the rest of the day... Except that I have Man-Flu.
If you listen to Radio1 then you know what I mean. Man-Flu is basically a really bad cold except only men can get it. And it really IS bad. It's really hard to breathe without this disgusting sucky sound. Tis not nice.

I think I have a super power. It isn't exactly a good one, but it's one none-the-less. I think I have the power to make my friends fall out with me even though I'm not in any contact with them. Tis a strange thing....
Jen was online, and everything was fine. Until she read this. She read the story about what happened on Friday, and got angry at me. She said that she didn't come off in a good light. So I changed it. And she still isn't happy.
So here is an official statement, declared by Joe himself..... Ahem;
"It is true, on the friday night in question, that Maddy was clearly in the wrong. Any information contrary to this fact is wrong. This is the end of the decree"


I'm bored now. Might as well continue with my story...
Tis boring as hell though.

When you look to the Heavens, think of me in Hell

Monday, October 04, 2004
Curent Mood: Full
Current Music: Foo Fighters- Monkey Wrench

Jen and Chaz came round about 20mins ago.

Now THAT was an odd experience.

Chris knocked on the door and sadi "You got people at the door for you"
And I was like "Who?"
And he said "I don't know and I don't care"
So I go to the empty front door. And I think "Is this a stitch up?"
Then Jen and Chaz jumped up from behind my car. They seemed kinda weird. They asked if I could come out and play. So they dragged me out (After my bro locked my out of the house) and they started skipping round the round-a-bout outside my house.
"You guys do know that it's Monday night and we have school tomorrow?"
"Then why are you drunk?"
I had to go in for dinner so I left them jumping up and down trying to see over my fence.

Very odd.

I had my dinner and went back on the net. 10mins later the doorbell rings and they're standing there in the rain...
And my mum makes me invite them in <_> Chaz is afraid of my cat so she steers clear of her. And they end up in the conservatory and shouting abuse into my convo boxes. Twas annoying. They were blocking Koori and calling her a bin and everything. And they were attacking my keyboard and stuff.

They ain't neva coming to my house again....

I'm Falling. Falling to Hell

Current Mood: Odd
Current Music: Avril Lavigne- Together

I feel odd.
No reason for it, I just am.
Tis really odd.

Ok. Now for the skinny about my LONG weekend. This will take a while....


The actual day part was quite decent. Not too bad, not too good either. As you can see I got on the internet last period cos of my comp teacher. Twas fun.
So, I got home and got ready for the Key. I was nearly late aswell cos Chris put dinner on really late. So I got to the Key and everything was great, Justine came along and I sat with her and her friends. It was really fun. Then I showed her around the Key and we sat up in another booth. It was really nice.
Then it gradually got downhill from there. Not for me personally, but in general it went down hill. You see, while I was preoccupied with Justine, I totally missed the massive fight that went on.
Heatherbelle and Kenny were playing about with my bag. Not like trying to get it, they were just playing around with it. Then Maddy came in and took it off them (Cos I asked them to stop Jen, Chaz and Heatherbelle from taking it) and shouted at them, calling them immature and stuff. I know that they shouldn't of taken my bag, but Maddy went overboard. Way too far.
So Jen went up to confront her. And a shouting match ensued.
I don't know the exact details (Cos I was on the other side of the room and out of view) but I know that everyone ganged up on Jen and stuff. Then she started crying.
After a while Justine had to leave, so she left and I went over to talk to Jen and all that and Heatherbelle tells me about it as Jen runs away from me in the tunnels. Then Heatherbelle started crying, so I hugged her which was follwed by punching the wall. Not a dumb little paper wall thing, an actual brick wall. THAT really hurt. Then we went up to the main bit and Jen went home. Was very sad.
Then I made my way round everyone, telling them that they had gone too far and stuff and what asses they were being. Kenny was a mess though. He was really upset that he had made her cry. He was being all silent and apoligising all the time and stuff. It was so sad...
Then the Key ended and I went home. Jen had fallen out with me cos she thought that I was behind all of them shouting at her. But we soon fixed things and everyone was better.
And by the time all my phone calls were finished it was technically Saturday.


I slept in really late, and I was almost late for Drama cos my watch stopped. I'm still wearing it the now even though it's broken... Anyway, it was ok this time round. We were just going through all the scenes and stuff. It was great.
Oh, yeah. And I got chucked out!
I didn't bring in my consent form on time so I'm not allowed back into the group. How annoying is that?!

Anyway, after that I went to the Halo thing at the Stewart Hotel. Now THAT was amazingly good fun. I played games all afternoon and all night. It was brilliant. And ChrisT (My bro) was being Chris's (The guy who runs it) bitch. Like he kept getting things when he asked for them and stuff. So I said to Chris "I bet I can go the whole night without being your bitch" and chris said "Alright then"
Half-way through the night ChrisT tried to nick a giant poster, but Chris caught him in time. I was standing near by laughing my head off, so Chris came up to me with the poster and said "Hey Joe, can you put this back up for me?"
And I said "Sure" and reached out to take the poster. But before I touched it I threw my hands up and said "Whoa! Almost got me there ya sneaky bastard!"
We laughed for a bit before he ut it back up himself.
It was practically midnight, and everyone was packing up and ready to leave. It was now that I was gonna say it. I went up to Chris and tapped him on the shoulder. He turned round, and X-box controller being wound up in his hand.
"Well. I belive it's now midnight. And not once have I been your bitch. Bye Chris!"
He smiled, out down his controller and ran at me.
I was out on the landing before he caught up to me. I was jumping down the steps when he grabbed my bag in mid jump. He yanked me back before lifting me up and dropping me on the ground. I laughed so hard that my chest hurt.
Or was it the fall that hurt?
I also got it ripped out of me cos I was wearing a brken watch. Chris was like "What's the time Joe. Oh wait, Sorry! I assumed that since you were wearing a watch that you could tell me the time. But it's broken? Ok then, TAKE THE FUCKING WATCH OFF YOU RETARD" He's so funny...
By the time I was all done with that Saturday had finished and Sunday had begun.


I slept in till noon. Then I did my homework, my ironing, got Jen a card, and went to Pizza Hut. We gave Jen all our pressies and stuff, then we had dinner. It was brilliant fun. I actually can't remember what we were talking about, but it sure was fun.
Twas great.


Has gone quite quickly actually. Double english where just talked about and watched Hamlet. I love that play! It's sooooo cool! I never thought I could say that about Shakespeare, but it's so cool!
After english I started thinking like that though. With all the poetic words and all. It was annoying after a while.
Maths got interupted cos we had to go this play about road safety. It was quite decent. Except for one of the actors. He looked just like me! He had my hair and my build and everything! The only thing that was different was his voice....
So I got a shit load of making-fun-of after that.
Lunch wasn't too fun. They stole my invitation to a Halloween party (That I needed to convince my mum to let me go) and they ripped it up and soaked it in water. So I shoued at jen, she slapped me three times. Then I shouted at her some more before I punched the wall cos I didn't want to hit her. I REALLY hurt my hand this time. I had a big black bruise on my pinky knuckle for an hour afterwards. And it still aches now. But I was happy after all that...
Then I had double physics, where I learned a possibly shocking fact about my girlfriend. I was talking to Louie about her and she said:
"What's her second name?"
"Ward. W-A-R-D"
"Did she go to St. Anthony's?"
"I dunno, maybe. Why?"
"JOE!!!! She could be my brothers ex!!!!"
"He used to go out with a girl named Justine Ward!!"
"You're fucking lieing!"
"Hell no! It's the truth I tells ya!"
So that's an interesting little tibit of info. That I didn't need to know. Thank you very much Louie.
And I hurt myself on the way home.
Well, technically Jen hurt me. We were walking home over the field behind St Kennys when she saw a dog in the distance, and she said, "God I hate dogs. They really scare me"
And I replied "Then how can you look in the mirror every day"
I got her arm before she could slap me and I held it in a posistion that blocked her other arm. Then I counted to three before I ran. But my hand got caught on her nail. And she ripped some skin off of my right ring finger. Hurt like hell and started bleeding a lot. But I was fine with it. It throbbed for ages though. But it's still cool.

And at the current moment I'm waiting for my friends to come online. And for Justine. I'm going to town with her this sunday and I'm seeing her on friday at the Key. Chaz, Jen, and Heatherbelle won't be there cos they'll be at the Marroon5 concert... YES!!!!!!!!!! I won't have to worry if they're round the corner waiting to pounce or something...
And I need to go to my aunts on saturday to paint some walls. I don't mind though. I get £20 out of it. £30 if I arrive before 9am. So it will be good.

I think I'm gonna write a story now... I got a good idea and I need to word it.

See ya!

And So I Fall Into the Eternal Slumber

Sunday, October 03, 2004
Current Mood: Buzzin
Current Music: None

I just got back from the Halo thing 5 minutes ago.
It was great fun. We played loads of games and stuff, and he organised paintball, and more stuff...
Twas great.


And now I have to go...

Damn mum, not letting me type...
I'll write my urgent news as soon as I can...

DAMN HER!!!!!!

When Fear is the Only thing Keeping You Alive

Friday, October 01, 2004
Current Mood: Bored
Current Music: None (No cds with me)

I'm in school!

Our computing teacher had to go for a dentist apointment so she left us by oursleves and said we could go on the net!
Am well happy.
Found this amazing snowboard game on the net thatnks to good old John Paul here beside me.

Can't wait for the Key tonight. First time I've seen Justine in ages. But we might actually go to a party that some kid is having in Stewartfield. Dunno if I'll go though. I might just stay down at the key. It all depends on what everyone else is doing. I know that Chaz, Jen and Heatherbelle are going to the party, but I'm not sure if Maddy is going yet. I'm not too sure if I even want to go. And I ain't even sure if Justine will meet me in time.....

The bell's about to ring so I gotta go.